Friday, June 29 / 5:56 PM
I thought that when there is a post-it note which says 'DO NOT TOUCH', you do not touch it. Especially when it is written with a black permanent marker.Beat
Sushi Tei
Olevel Chinese Oral
and this is why today sucks so badly
Because the examiner laughed at me.
Oh did I tell you how feeding Bones (Its Bones now because Marisse beat me in Rock, Paper,Scissors) had me late for school?
Tuesday, June 26 / 9:49 PM
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This is how things work around here. One day I'm a 'alien hybrid', the next i grew short and lost my eyes. So tomorrow, i'll grow an extra ears and have furry cheeks. Omg.
Today - Nothing eventful. Just sent 15 blank messages to Aikcheng, chased after the wrong bus. Yup, that was the most embarassing thing today. I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT! I ran and then realised that the bus stop i was at doesn't even have 133. It is like this totally non existent thing. Omg (again). The kind busdriver still stopped for me :) maybe because i'm the next cool thing.
So anyway
The bleach is crawling up my hand, it is eating me inside out, from my bones to my flesh. I drowned my hand in bleach to soak my shorts. I forgot to add the water.
Tuesday i prayed i don't do such things a week before Os.
Sigh this whole random thoughts thing keep coming out of me, maybe like word vomit. And then i have no idea what i'm talking about in this entry. If you're to give a title, it would go something like 'How gwen thought she looks which might be true and how gwen thought the day was normal and what bleach was doing to gwen's hand', or simply just 'gwen'.
Saturday, June 23 / 9:15 AM
They went to Malaysia and back in a day with no shopping bags. Awesome i wouldn't be able to do that. Unless you know, i went there cashless. And a movie there is only $5-ish. And Serena's going there to do her hair during the weekend. I've never been to Malaysia! Omgxgxgxgx. Darren?Hey Chloe, thanks for that movies website. Looooveyou. Its Saturday and hey there's Rock for Wayne. And hey again, there's a huge Mango sale which i will be going (little money) with Chloe. We planned to go early so that there will still be nice clothes and nice sizes for us. Hawhawhaw, parents are inculcating to us the art of kiasuism.
Thursday, June 21 / 8:43 AM
I developed the pictures already. The best part of disposable pictures is that you don't get to see how it looks like. And it'll be too late once you developed it because it cost $0.35.
Tuesday, June 19 / 9:44 PM
i bought a disposable camera with 27 films. lets take pictures the old fashion way.Monday, June 18 / 8:53 PM
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i think mdm yoong is cool. i dont really know who took these, but it's cool either. i got it off bluetooth during her lesson. i hope no teacher sees this.
Thursday, June 14 / 10:02 PM
i bought cat food but i can't find a catSunday, June 10 / 8:10 PM
My sister is such a dollTV: Flooded Sydney Australia
Sister: Hey, looks beautiful
News Broadcaster: Two people are dead and five missing in NSW flood waters caused by wild weather.
Sister: Oh its a disaster.
Saturday, June 9 / 10:23 PM
Hello Ginger!
Haha that was so typical
I really couldn't remember what I wanted to say, but what I do know is that one day I am going to meet long-time-no-see Aldric. Which is going to be quite awhile from now. Procrastinators are the leaders of the world right andrew?
I always wondered, if it is ever possible to tattoo under the eyelids, would I be able to see the tattoo when I sleep. Like if I tattoo Love under one eyelid and Animals under the other, can I see it? Or like Safe Money to serve as a constant reminder. Shhh I'll have a tattoo no one can see.
And lastly, I would like to complain about being unable to 'catch' Chloe. The pictures! Oh Milan, the pictures Chloe! Did I tell you about how Chloe and I took pictures with everyone in Anberlin and Copeland? Haha get jealous. Or maybe not really because everyone took one too.
Thursday, June 7 / 12:23 PM
I counselled myself mentally and now I can't agree much better that I am an emotionally stable girl.I wanted to tell you about this amazing theory I thought I had the other time. The other time was Marisse, Leslie, Bryan and I were coming back from Cherylann's party. The other time was also 4am in the cab. I was telling Marisse about this theory I came up with. That morning everything was misty-ish hazy and all those nonsense. Since I couldn't find a reasonable explanation for it (of course I am not the weatherman), I figured it might be ultra mini raindrops. Like miniature rain or some sort. Isn't it cool? Mini-rain. Whoaaa. Maybe next time i could do 'theology'. I could research on theories and proof them fake. Or real maybe. Like Mythbusters.
I know Leslie and Bryan wasn't listening to me and my cool theory. This is like my second, first is kinda below
This is almost crazy, i could be talking to anyone but i chose to blog. Things are really getting out of hand. Its unbelievable how fast things can change in a minute.
I'll post this, and maybe i'll delete it later on.
I am being very unreasonable.
No one really knows who i truly am, and i'm willing to keep it that way. I really wish i'm just pmsing, that would give me a reason to be this way. (Still unreasonable).
How alone can you get in this world. How is it that you want to be alone. But at the same time still want company? Or how is it that you push someone away, but yet want that person to be by your side. I know its really horrible how i'm phrasing everything, but i really do not have a strong command of English. Everything is just raw. Why do i still lie when i know how it feels to get hurt because i didn't know the truth. Why is it that i feel like crying even though there is nothing to cry about. I'm being this really stupid unreasonable brat because other people out there deserve to cry more than me. This is not a noble act or anything (blogging and all), i just couldn't tell this to anyone. And i said i'll promise not to write a diary (some bad experiences). I wish i could break that promise, but then again, i still may not have a diary. This is just some internal conflict within myself and which i have to put it down somewhere. Yes, in case they run away.
Why is it that after me throwing so much nonsense at you, you can still say 'goodnight and i love you'. Are you on a quest to make me feel worse? Because if you are, you're succeeding. Am i just being that old paranoid freak i once was? Or still am?
To my ex-bff (really childish i know, but true), i hope things will be fine. I'm pretty sure i won't be able to help much, i doubt you would let me either. So all i can do is hope. Now this is my first
I know this sounds like the dumbest excuse to give, but nothing has been going right after 4. Yes, after reading what i've just typed. Its just stupid.
I feel like i've got so much to spill, but the words just come and go. They never lasted long enough for me to put it all down. They just keep running away from me. Maybe if i dig properly somewhere in my cerebrum, i might just be able to get it straight.
I thought all of us were supposed to meet around 4ish. I'm not exactly blaming anyone, but I feel wretched because it was 6 and there was still noone around. Somehow when i'm putting all these down, i dont expect any of you to read. You all do not come here.
Sometimes i just want to win. And sometimes you do too. And sometimes we don't give in. We find fault with each other, we blame each other for things. And sometimes, we don't realise. But despite all these, i still need you. The squabbles just become a necessity. We argue so often, but sometimes you just don't see it. You look at it in a special way. I like how different you are from the rest. And i'm scared i'll take you forgranted. This is getting insane because i don't really get what i'm typing anymore. They just becomes phrases i simply throw in; Because i'm scared they'll run away. If they do, i might not find them anymore and i will never know about them.
Like now, after my mom came in to scold me.
A.) I put myself in a room with no ventilation
B.) I'll suffocate to death?
I forgot what i wanted to say.
I really forgot.
Tuesday, June 5 / 2:46 PM
Happy Birthday Cherylann. With all your puke on the floor and people puking because of the stank, you are the peak of ultamatism. <3
This morning i left the chocolate wrapper on the table and the ants came. I caught them in a plastic cup and the thought of cooking them alive came into my mind. But then, this is going against my 'i love animals' campaign. I thinks ants are nice creatures as long as they dont invade your home. I used to eat them.
I am always the outsider.
Friday, June 1 / 11:05 PM
So that day we were all talking about having super powers.Leon wants to be invisible and create forcefields like that girl in Fantastic 4
Cherylann wants to have a wallet that replenishes by itself
I want to be able to talk to animals like Dr Dolittle
We all have nice little dreams.
Like today, we all watched Next. The man that can see 2 minutes into the future? He is awesome. But it wouldn't be nice to be able to look into the future. No 'kick'. You always win unless you choose otherwise. It's like now, i'm blogging. And after i post this, i'll know who will be reading this post in the next two days. Ok it's not as though it matters anyway.
The house phone wouldn't stop ringing, and I will not pick it up.